How Far Love Goes, Part 2

This post is for my boys- the children whom I have been blessed with for 11 and 6 years. I'm always posting for the other two, but even though half of my heart is in Ukraine, the other half is right here, in Ada, Oklahoma. And in a few days, I will have to leave that half behind. Everyone keeps telling me that kids are resilient and "They'll be fine!". But that doesn't stop my heart from breaking at the very thought of Christmas morning without them. Yesterday, we had a long, tearful talk in the truck parked just outside the house. I told them that this is a time for us to understand the true meaning of family. Even when we're apart, we stand together. We made a decision as a family to invite these boys into our home, and this is what it takes to get them here. The boys both agreed. One thing I've always told them, and I hope they remember this without rolling their eyes at Mommy, is "Anything worth while takes time." I usually follow it up with, "Remember when Mommy had Noah in my tummy? It was 9 long months, but when he was finally born, wasn't it worth the wait?" We talk about it when we're baking cookies or learning multiplication tables. Anything worth while takes time. And although I fool myself into thinking that I have some amount of control over their time away from us- the bottom line is that it is God who is ALWAYS watching over them, even while we're together. I'm sure that this is an opportunity for Him to remind us that we are only their earthly parents. God is using this adoption journey to mold all of our hearts.

"All the things you treasure most
Will be the hardest won
I will watch you struggle on
Before the answers come
But I won't make it harder
I'll be there to cheer you on
I'll shine the light that guides you down
The road you're walking on

You'll fly away
but take my hand until that day
So when they ask how far love goes
When my job's done, you'll be the one who knows."
-Dar Williams